So many things I wish you could know about this incident. If you read this I would want to tell you that I have always loved you. Even when I wasn't equipped to do so. Jessica was my fault. Ashlee was my fault. With Jessica my inability to say no and decline her advanced was my problem. I took the bait. I fucked up. With Ashlee, I needed the closure, it was nice that her and I were talking, but we were always very good friends. There was flirting on both parts but it went no further than that. I have absolutely no reason to lie at this point, you're already gone. I just figure at this point, If you did stumble upon this, you could feel better knowing that even when this happened, I was, at the end of the day, chasing closure. Which I did get, very definitively.
I wish I could tell you how much it crushes my soul to know we both feel the same way. I've read articles, talked to life coaches, looked into how much spells/psychics cost. You're right, there isn't a quick fix. There are no answers. I can't force you to love me the way I want you to. The feelings that I felt for you, are true, deep and pure. I want to call you. I want to text you. I just wanna come home to you. You have always been the person I've wanted, at the end of the day. I can't fault you for leaving. I just hope that you use the key you have one day and come home. ♥️ I cry every night, I hold onto bunny, she knows the taste of my tears so well. I just wish it was you. I truly do. I pray. I pray every night for you to come to me. I plead and I beg with God on a nightly basis to bring your love back until I'm so exhausted I pass out.
I fucking miss you. I miss us. I miss it all. There will always be home in my heart for you. Please. Come home.
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