i cant sleep

Originally posted 6/20/24 4:44am.

 i am being haunted by the ghosts of you at this point. i find myself not being able to Sleep, eat or even Concentrate. I know why you left And went. he suckered you into it. this guy is a Really incredibly good manipulator. i could tell he was slick with it once he was on the phone. i said it up front, you Let the sweet taste fool Even you. The sad part is, The dude is so transparent. I just hope that you figure it out before its too late. i would hate to See you end up in A bad way because this guy talked you into it. i always Made sure you were well taken care of And you never went without anything. such a Pity. 

here it is 444 in the morning. the angel number thing, we used to text to each other all of the time, even as recently as two days ago. it says that the number means it is guiding you to a path of clarity and decisiveness. I guess this is my sign. 

i do not believe i will take you back after this. true, we will have to speak at least for the sake of our son. but more than that, i dont wish to have anything to do with you. you told our little secrets. you told him our things, you told him about me. but i understand why, when you literally spend every waking moment you have tied to your phone with him.  you told him almost every one of your little secrets i am sure but you have still never uttered a word about your passenger. i will even leave that alone here. but if one looks hard enough they might find a clue. 

i find myself sobbing, i cant sleep. i just lay here, and do what was your favorite activity, rotting. but my house isn't a mess, so i'm not doing too bad at this point.